realization and revelation, thanks and praise

The Holy Spirit loves me. This I realized just today, after hearing a message noting that the Holy Spirit is not an "It" but "he" in the sense that he's a person.

Once I realized that, or started to, I called up a prayer line I often call and gave a praise report to that effect, laughing with joy as I did.

We've been told for so long that God loves us, that Jesus loves us. I know that. Have known for a long time. But now I know the Holy Spirit loves me, too. I know it in my heart and in my head, and I'm so grateful, especially after I had spent so many years being afraid of offending the Holy Spirit, seeing him more as enforcer than Comforter.

The Holy Spirit also shared with me that I can't love him if I'm afraid of him. It makes so much sense. I feel the Spirit welling up in me, that tightness of the chest (and it's not anything I ate).

Thank you, Holy Spirit.

-Love, Sean

p.s. For those reading this, I feel impressed by the Holy Spirit to say that he loves you, too. :)

thanks

Last night, I was listening to a Joyce Meyer message that had me question, as I have done many times before, my own anointing. I asked God, "Am I anointed to be writing novels". He said, "Yes." I asked, "Am I supposed to be a filmmaker." He said, through me and in my voice, quite loudly, "Yes! Now stop asking and start doing!" I wondered if He was mad at me, as one might guess from the tone. "No," he said through me, not much less loudly, "I'm not mad; I'm just trying to get through to you. Now, don't ask me again or I'll pass the anointing on to another."

I've questioned God so much, and He's already given what answers he's going to give for where I am right now. When I start moving, more will be revealed, but not until then.

So I'm now sharing my gratitude to God for telling me, in no uncertain terms, yes I'm to write novels and, yes, I'm to be a filmmaker. Simple as that. Not easy, mind; just simple. Good thing I've already been working on a new novel and a new movie. :)

-Sean

Thank God!

I've gotten done with a film, which will be sent to the Short Film Corner at Cannes, but in the film, one character was drinking from a coffee mug with a logo of Prison Fellowship, which is a copyrighted thing. It's blurry, but it's there. So, since the film's already on DVD and I didn't want to or really know how to organically change it, I contacted Prison Fellowship, Int'l. to get permission to use the logo, which as I understand it you need to do. I prayed for favor with them and said to God that if he wanted the film to go ahead, then to have Prison Fellowship okay the use of their logo's image. They granted it, removing the last real obstacle to this film's being ready to launch. Thank God for his favor and answer to prayer.

I tell ya, this is one blessed production, from the cast and crew coming together to the events that happened while I was trying to make the DVD (it wasn't ready and the device I rented wouldn't work with a computer--the store swapped me for something that would work and put the film on DVDs I'd bought, and they did those transfers [from mini-DV to DVD] for free), God's hand has been on this. I'm so grateful. Thank you, God, and glory be to You.

Sean
Kana Films

God saved my life

I was just listening to the testimony of Kenneth Copeland's cousin Gary Joe Kinne, Jr. Gary got shot point blank just below the chest with a .41 and survived, though the doctors said if it had been a quarter-inch in any direction, he'd have died. Now, that reminded me of a brush I had: I was maybe eleven or twelve years old and playing around and jumped to touch the top of a door frame, for lack of a better word. I caught my wrist on a nailhead, went to the hospital and got stitches. I've still got the scar. The doctor said if that cut had been a quarter-inch to the right, I probably would have died. But God intervened; His angels, even then, were protecting me as they've always been. God's got more for me to do in this life, and I certainly wasn't done here at eleven or twelve years old.

So, thanks, praise and glory to God for saving my life physically (more than once) as well as spiritually. Funny how I don't know that I even thanked Him for that, but thank you, God.

Here's something else God's shown me, something I've prayed about: I've been believing for my new car and all. Got finally convinced me that the way He showed me long ago is the way to get it: pay off some things, set aside a chunk of change and then go get it. It was a friend of mine's sharing that finally put the final piece into place--you know who you are, R.M.

God also showed me one more thing today: instead of griping about the car I have, I got prayer to be more grateful for it--to enjoy it. To take joy in it, and as I do, I'll have a better experience with it. The new car _will_ come. As long as I've got the old car, I'm going to enjoy it.